What is this Word you Speak ofWhat is this you call "love"?This is a strange word, something I don't think I've heard of...Did you make this word up, because I'm sure it's not realIt sounds like a sickness, or a horrible ordealThis word perplexes me, I can't quite figure out it's meaningSomeone once told me that this word can be amazingBut I still don't quite understand what it isIs there anyone out there that can show me what it is?Wait just one minute...This "love" you speak of... Yes, I think I've been in it.And if I can recall correctly... It kind of sucked!It caused my heart to preform out of it's normal conduct.If I remember just right, this "love" was just a waste of timeIt was messy and stupid, and not worth a damn dimeIt made me cry for no reason, and just stressed me outIt made my head pound, and chest tight, I felt just like a walking cloutThis "love" you speak of, I think it's all just a clever ruseThis word is too thrown around, too full of misuseIt's not real, it never wasWell.... N
Things I Wish I could SayI wish I could say that I was bullet proofBut to say I was would be a very bold lieThe only feelings I feel are feelings of aloofMy tears have dried up, there's no more left to cryI wish I could say my heart is made of stoneTo say such things would be very untrueBut lately I have been feeling just so aloneI have been on the edge, on purlieuI wish I could say that I am strongBut to say so would not be so realI always feel like I am in the wrongAnd lately it's just been hard to dealI wish I could say I just don't careBut to say so would be a wild bluffI said I was just alright, but now I must forswearI just need a shoulder to lean on, my mind is roughI wish I could say I feel alrightBut to say that would be tall storyI have gone to battle, I've fought all I could fightI had to do what had to be done, and for that I am sorryI wish I could say I want nothing to do with youBut to say so would be the biggest inaccuracy I could manageIn fact I want everything to do with
Contained- Spin OffIt was cold outside, and it seemed to seep in through the glass of the windows, and throughout the rest of the big over-sized house. Even though I had on a big sweatshirt, and blue jeans, I still felt cold.I was in the upstairs hallway, sitting by myself on the sofa right next to the window. It was cloudy and dark. Rain water was streaming down the glass, making it hard to see any details outside. I was curled up in a ball, thinking, stressed, burnt out
The past few months have crazy. Chase joined us, and paired off with Dactyl. Spencer joined us, and paired off with Lemur. A while after that happened, Xander and Avangeline joined us (after trying to kill us I might add
), and Avangeline ended up pairing off with Wolf (gag). So in the time Xander has been here, he ended up taking charge, seeing as my decisions were "childish" and "dangerous". Whatever
Mr. 21 Year-Old, Chase's older brother, Jerkie McJerk-Jerk can do whatever he wants. He has everything but my respect.
Wicked QueenPretty face, but not a pretty heartYou get what you want because you pick people apartYou step on the weak and break down the strongAnd the sad thing is you don't want to see that you're wrongYou crawl up the mountain of lies you have builtYou just don't care about others, how they feltYou sit upon your throne you created for yourselfAnd expect others to bow down at thyselfThose who defy have their heads removedThose who stand up to your evil ways are quickly disapprovedYou reign with wickedness with no remorseYou rule like you have free concourseYour crown of ice sits upon your hair black as coalYour teeth are sharp and never dullLooking down with scorn upon your slave like kingdomProud of wicked queen you have become
BipolarI hate youI love youFuck youI want to be with youYou're an assYou're the bestYou're a jerkYou're amazing like a fireworkYou piss me offYou are my quaffGet away from meYou're the most beauiful thing I seeI can't stand youYou are a mind gumshoeBack the hell awayStand by my side, and always stay
Will You Be There?When the bullet pierces my heart, will you be there to hear my dying breath?Will you be there to hold my hand as I drift away to my death?Will you be there to close my eyes, and lay me off to rest?Will you be there there in the end to continue and finish my conquest?Will you be there when I fall and hit the ground?Will you be there to mend my heart after it's been found?Will you be there to hold me close without just letting go?Will you be there when I need you most and tears begin to flow?Will you be there when my whole world comes crashing down?Will you be there when water is over my head, saving me before I drown?Will you be there when I just want to give up and die?Will you be there when all I want to do is cry?
You Will Not Be MissedSometimes I am afraidSometimes I am weakSometimes I need someone to come to my aidI just need a friendOne that is trueOne that won't try to hurt me in the endIt's been really toughNot going to lieI can honestly say the going got roughWho can I trust?Who can I go to?Who will help me to my feet before my heart begins to rust?Why did ths happen?Why aren't people real?My list of "friends" has become quite barrenI'm floating awayI'm leaving you allThere's no point in asking all of you to stayYou don't careYou never didDon't ask to be my "friend", don't you dareWe used to be fineBut then you liedDon't expect me to ever be kindI'm done with thisNo more is saidDon't worry, you're absolutely nothing to miss.
New LeafMy tongue is on fire, my words are nastyI'm cutting my ties, I'm making it hastyI am done being timid and afraid to speakMy kindness has just met it's lowest peakYou don't care for me, you never haveWhy should I wish for the friendship we shouldn't have?You're no good for me, it's as clear as dayDon't bother talking to me, my feelings will not belayI'm turning over a new leaf made of cold hard stoneIf you have wronged me, I won't listen to you droneIf you just float around and don't care for meDon't expect me to be the nicest I can beI will speak my mind and tell you allKnowing now that no one will catch me as I fallI'll get up off the ground on my own, I always doI am no longer the stupid fool